Chan Gin Kai
One of those days Jesus went out to a mountainside to pray, and spent the night praying to God. When morning came, he called his disciples to him and chose twelve of them, whom he also designated apostles: Simon (whom he named Peter), his brother Andrew, James, John, Philip, Bartholomew, Matthew, Thomas, James son of Alphaeus, Simon who was called the Zealot, Judas son of James, and Judas Iscariot, who became a traitor. (Luke 6:12-16)
Trusting God Even When We're Able
Jesus went to a solitary place to be alone with God, as was his custom, and spent the whole night praying. The next morning, he selected the Twelve Apostles.
The disciples had followed Jesus everywhere everyday, and he must have had a chance to know them well. We’ve seen from various accounts that Jesus was highly observant and had a perceptive understanding of people’s hearts too. He was more than capable of deciding who to pick as Apostles. But he still spent the whole night praying about his selection.
I must confess that this is one of my weaknesses. I turn to God only when I do not know how to solve a problem. I pray when I am confused, or in doubt or need that extra divine intervention to help me overcome an insurmountable obstacle. But do I seek God’s wisdom in areas I consider well within my expertise or experience?
Sadly, I don’t. I will analyse, strategise and execute my plans, confident in my ability to rise to most challenges. Turning to God is not my automatic first action, but my last resort when everything else fails. It reflects how I view God – as a problem solver.
The fact is, I talk to my wife about various things because I love talking to her, regardless of whether I need her help or not. So why don’t I do the same with God? I guess this reveals my arrogance, my overestimation of myself. If I can do it, why turn to God? I forget that even the abilities I take pride in come from God in the first place.
I put my trust in myself, a fallible human being, more than I trust our omnipotent God... that’s sheer stupidity.
Trusting God Even When It Hurts
As Jesus was praying about his selection of Apostles, he knew that one of them would betray him, and that he had to choose a traitor. How did he feel knowing that one of his choices would lead to his death? Would he have been tempted not to pick Judas? But he chose Judas and loved him like the other Apostles, despite knowing that Judas would one day turn against him. He submitted himself to God’s will because he was confident in God’s plan.
How would you feel if you know that God’s plans for you would hurt you? And what if the pain you have to go through is to benefit someone else? That was the case for Jesus. Would you accept it or choose to turn away? Do you have absolute confidence in God’s wisdom? Do you believe that He will eventually help you overcome the pain he wants you to go through?
Trust in God, that He works for your good.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)
Chan Gin Kai
Gin Kai is a film producer who believes in the power of media to inspire positive changes. He has spearheaded disaster relief and capacity building projects in impoverished communities across Asia. In church, he serves as a mentor to young professionals in the EDGE Ministry. He describes himself as "just a sinner who wants to get right with God".