Every Day God Is Enough
Updated: Aug 26, 2019
‘’The apostles performed many miraculous signs and wonders among the people. And all the believers used to meet together in Solomon’s Colonnade. No one else dared join them, even though they were highly regarded by the people. Nevertheless, more and more men and women believed in the Lord and were added to their number." (Acts 5:12-14)
It was in the year 1987 that I was "met". I was a "religious Joe" attending a large church then. I was very involved with the worship ministry, singing in every Easter and Christmas cantatas for 8 years.
During those times, I did not have many friends as I was shy and insecure by nature, so I would attend church services by myself and yet never missed a single service in all those 8 years.
So you could imagine I felt pretty good about my commitment, until I met Lin Yip. She was a young lady from Malaysia who had just graduated from London. She appeared lost when I met her at Dhoby Ghaut, and after asking for directions to Prinsep Street (where the brothers' flat was), got my number to keep in touch. Sure enough, she called and invited me to join her and her friends for a movie. I did, and afterwards, was invited for a home-cooked dinner at Prinsep Street.
Among the few of her friends was Kim Mooi. I remembered her clearly because she appeared to be a no nonsense person! But she was friendly enough and she reached out to me as well. After dinner, I had a long chat with them as we discussed about church and religion. I was quick to try and impress them by boasting about what my church did and how big the church was, but I was dumbfounded when they asked me questions about my personal relationship with God. I was actually intrigued by the way they expressed their views based on the Bible. As I was talking with them, I noticed that the other Christians started to leave the house after their dinner. I found out that they were going out to the streets to reach out to people. I was ‘blown away’ as I have never met a bunch of Christians who were so sincere in seeking and saving the lost, yet so relatable, down to earth and friendly.
By the time I left the apartment that evening, I told myself to better not get too close to them, because I might just be tempted to join them! Like the Book of Acts, I dared not join them though I regarded them highly.
Six months later, just when I thought that I have put this behind me, a lady approached me one evening in the train on my way home. This time, it was an angmoh (white) lady who introduced herself as Suzanne Marshall. She had come from London and joined her friends to start a church in Singapore. Immediately I could sense that it was the same bunch of Christians whom I have met before.
When Suzanne invited me to study out the Bible, I readily agreed because I thought we could discuss the Bible as fellow believers. But more than that, I felt that God is telling me something. You see, though I was still attending church, I knew that my heart was getting cold as I was consumed with selfish ambitions and I felt somewhat guilty about it. I remembered praying for God to show me how to get back to Him. So this invitation to study the Bible was like an answered prayer.
The rest is history.
It has been 30 years since I got baptised on 16 September 1988.
I have spent more than half my life in the Central Christian Church. I was there at many of your weddings, baby-sat some of your children and witnessed the baptisms of your grown up teenagers. As a church, we went through good times and bad, and although we made many mistakes along the way, our hearts are united in trying to follow what the Bible says. God in His mercy has kept the church going despite our weaknesses and sins.
For me, my struggles especially during my younger years would be my sense of security as a single. Like everyone else, the desire to get settled and have a family is normal. As I see my peers moved on with their lives, I rejoiced with them, but at the same time I was wondering when will my turn come. One particular morning when I woke up, the thought of being single for the rest of my life became a reality. It was hard to accept and I was in a state of panic and desperation.
The fact of the matter is singleness does not exist just in church. It is a phenomenon happening everywhere. But the difference is that we have each other in the kingdom, and I am blessed with friendships which I could never find in the world. God has designed for us to have a spiritual family in His kingdom where we can learn to love one another and care for each other deeply.
And the fact that I am single is not necessarily because there is something wrong with me or because I am picky. My life is not based on a set of things to do in order to get the results I want, but rather I believe God has a unique plan for me and whatever state I am at, I should embrace it with a sense of gratitude and trust.
The real breakthrough in helping me deal with my insecurity comes when I dig deeper into the Bible. Singleness itself is not necessarily something to lament about. As a single, we are free from the relational anxieties and we can have undivided devotion to the Lord. In 1 Corinthians 7, Paul said that life is so short that from now those who have wives should live as if they had none. In other words, we are not to set our hearts on worldly enjoyment, for this world in its present form is passing away. In the light of this destination, marriage is only a temporary experience meant to be just a foreshadow of what is to come when God receives us as His bride. In Christ, no one is single, and in heaven, no one is married. Ultimately, we will be single forever, and we will be finally married forever, joined with our Saviour and our First Love.
In this fleshy body, I still do struggle, particularly with growing older. The way to battle these moments of struggles is to renew my mind everyday by reading the word of God, filling my mind with the truth, thereby changing my heart to desire things that are far better.
I am in the EDGE ministry, which stands for EVERY DAY GOD IS ENOUGH. This phrase has reminded me that God alone is enough to satisfy me in all my longings, so that sin loses its power, the things of this world lose their charm, and I can find in God my final happiness.
Joanne Low (EDGE Ministry)
This is taken from Joanne's communion sharing in April this year along with a series of communions by disciples baptised in 1988. We requested for her script as many sisters were impacted by her sharing. Almost all of us would know Joanne as a zealous song leader, few would know that she has faithfully served in that capacity for more than twenty years!